Mother’s Day

I have to say that I’ve hated this day for many years. Why, you ask? For the past eight years, I’ve wanted nothing more than to be called a Mom. When Mother’s Day rolled around, I hated this day more than anything. It was such a painful day for me (wanting so badly to have a child and not being able to). We even stopped going to church on this day as each year only got worse for me.

So, now that I am actually a Mom, I’m not quite sure what to think of today. While I’ve waited for this day for what feels like forever, it’s hard to believe it’s finally here. I have mixed feelings about today. It feels weird to experience it for what it is. I thought I’d embrace it, but like pregnancy, it just left me in a weird “in between” space. I think my wounds of Mother’s Day are still there and aren’t going to heal very quickly. I’m sure as the years go by, I will soak up all that this day offers. I’m looking forward to that day, but in the meantime, I have a smile on my face and tears in my eyes. My day is finally here. I’m a Mom, something to be proud of.

And, now transitioning from all that nonsense, to something more fun…
Brody got me the greatest gift (besides just being him). I woke up this morning to a card on my nightstand. How this little guy snuck in at night and put it there is beyond me. The card was amazing (I did blur out what Jason wrote as I want his sweet words to be just for me). Included in the card was a handmade gift card entitling me to a day away to do whatever I want, going to my favorite spa for a massage, facial, manicure, pedicure, and whatever else my heart desires. To top it off, I have the option of taking someone with me (on the house….house being Jason of course). So…who wants to be my friend?

What I loved even more was Brody’s next surprise. We’re sitting in the living room together and here is the conversation…
Jason: What? What’d you say?
Brody: whisper, whisper, whisper
Jason: Oh, you have one more surprise for Mommy?
Jason: What was that?
Brody: whisper, whisper, whisper
Jason: Oh, you want Mommy to check out your blog?

So, I went into Jason’s office and checked out Brody’s blog. I LOVED it! Check it out yourself…

If you’re a Mom, I hope you’re having a wonderful Mother’s Day.  If you’re wanting to be a Mom and the day hasn’t yet gotten here for you, please know I know how you feel and how hard this day is.  I’m praying for you.