The Most Amazing Part

I have to say that finding out you’re pregnant after eight years really is a shock.  For the past two years, we had completely moved on with our lives and were trying to still accept the fact that we weren’t going to have children.  To know now that I’m pregnant makes me almost feel lost.  I’m no longer part of the infertility group that has been such a huge part of my life and who I have been over the past several years, but to be part of a “mommy” group feels weird too, maybe because I never thought I’d be part of it, but partly because I don’t feel like they have an inkling of the journey I’ve gone through to get where I am.  Where getting pregnant seems to just happen to most people, trying for eight years is such an extreme difference.

Reality certainly started to set in when we had our first ultrasound (at 7 weeks).  To see the baby (which totally looks like a baby seahorse this early on) and to hear the heartbeat was truly the most amazing thing I’ve ever experienced.  There is really a living being inside of me.  I am going to be a Mom!  The thought is so exciting, yet scary.  God is SO good and His timing truly is the best timing, even if it isn’t the timing we had in mind.